Friendzone

He was once I loved but now who is my friend. I fall for him again and once again my feelings can't reach him. My heart keeps on hoping but my heart keeps being hurt. A hope is a dangerous thing I know, but I still hope for them to fall for me back and the one who are special for my heart. The cycles keeps on repeating. I love him but I'm in the friendzone. I learn to accept but my heart still hurt from the rejection. I'm there for you as a friend but your too busy with your life. How about me? Who will be there for me when I'm down. My lecturers dislike me but act like kind to me because I once loved you and because you are closed to me as a FRIEND. Does she only kind to me when she needed help?

My New Working Life

Hi!! Currently, I'm working at a place where there are various type fish and people from various country come to visit. In my working place, I can say that I am having so much fun!! My colleagues are special and friendly but I have to be careful not to attract attentions because they are all kind but they have a certain habits. I met various types of customers and my work requires attending the customers and handling lots of cash. Because of that, I'm kinda afraid making mistakes but insyaallah there won't be any mistakes in term of cash that is. But still!! I can't believe it, I make a blunder yesterday!! I need to learn from that mistakes and don't ever repeat it.

I can't believe it😆😆

It's my birthday today!! I thought I didn't have friends that remember my birthday.. But I do have friends who still remember me.. But among all the wishes, my favourite wishes is from someone I once loved and now consider me as his bestfriend.. The wishes goes like this.. Morning and happy birthday my dear ****.. It may seems simple but for me, it can change my whole day 360 degrees.. And I met him just now, he keep on wishing me happy birthday😍😍.. I don't need gifts or presents but all I need is a simple wish that can make me happy.. I didn't say that others who wishes me doesn't make me happy.. No... I'm thrilled actually but from that one particular person wish make me extra happy😘😘

Few Minutes to go

Although, I know I'm childish but I can't avoid thinking that I'm really am childish... I'm sleepy but I refuse to go to sleep.. Because tomorrow is my 20th birthday.. It's supposed to be special I think..  I'm not expecting any present or gifts but I want my friends and my family to atleast remember and wish me.. But I don't think it's really possible since I'm not much of a always spend her time with her friends.. I know it's hurt if what I hope won't come true but I still hope for it.. Tomorrow, I'm still doing the same thing and nothing change at all.. I have to accept that I'm just one of the many person in the world.. Although, I said that.. I know that I refuse to accept it..

Just A Bit

As I see people from my surrounding, I realised that everyone have their places in the world. The uncles and aunties have their own jobs and responsibility, the lady who walk in front of me has her own responsibility and things to do and she know what she want to do with her life. That moment, I wonder.. What me? Where's my place in the world? What do I want to do? Can I make difference to the world? Am I unique and limitless? What is my ambition? What is my goal? What will I be in the next 5 years? Will I be successful? Can I make my parents feel proud of me? Will I make them happy? All this questions and many more are always in my mind. I can't seem to find a way out!   Actually, I'm not sure of what I want. Maybe it's true that I'm a half-assed type of person that always unsure of everything. And I learned that hope can be both good and bad. It can either make us feel in the cloud or make us feel empty and only dissapointment exist. But unfortunately, I'm a foolish girl that will always hope and only to be left feeling disappointed at last.