Shareholder Slash Unemployed Life

Let's see.. Everyday, I'm doing the same thing.. Which are eat, sleep, watch malay drama, then sleep.. Because of I'm having too much free time, my negative thinking is back.  I don't know if I'm desperate or anything.. But I really want to date someone that is just like the guys in the drama I watched. I know it's unrealistic but still.. I can hope and dream right? My heart feel uneasy, I don't know the reason for it.. I don't know who to talk to.. That's why, all I can do is express it in my blog.. My blog is where no one who knew me, know about it.. I just need somewhere to express this unresolved thinking, feeling.

Don't

Don't say it's okay for me to fall for you again.. What if I take it seriously and fall u harder... What if I keep on bugging u to fall in love with me back... What if I hope for more than just a friends... It won't be hard for my heart to switch from friend to love because I do love you before but I let it go because you fall for other person and because your heart is too far from me.. Don't ever let me hope.. I may be sometimes okay with certain things but that's only because I don't want to lose my positivity..

Thank you. I need it.

Actually don't care about what ppl say about you because you are not living under their comment or statement. Believe me, you are much more better than you know. You got the ability just you need time to polish it. Ya, we will be hurting after we heard what ppl say about us. Be thankful for the bad things in life. They open your eyes to see the good things you weren’t paying attention to before. Ignore the people who talk about you behind the back. That's exactly where they belong, behind your back. Some people will love to hate you for all the wrong reason but they're not worth your attention. Remember, you are much more better than you know.

Friendzone

He was once I loved but now who is my friend. I fall for him again and once again my feelings can't reach him. My heart keeps on hoping but my heart keeps being hurt. A hope is a dangerous thing I know, but I still hope for them to fall for me back and the one who are special for my heart. The cycles keeps on repeating. I love him but I'm in the friendzone. I learn to accept but my heart still hurt from the rejection. I'm there for you as a friend but your too busy with your life. How about me? Who will be there for me when I'm down. My lecturers dislike me but act like kind to me because I once loved you and because you are closed to me as a FRIEND. Does she only kind to me when she needed help?

My New Working Life

Hi!! Currently, I'm working at a place where there are various type fish and people from various country come to visit. In my working place, I can say that I am having so much fun!! My colleagues are special and friendly but I have to be careful not to attract attentions because they are all kind but they have a certain habits. I met various types of customers and my work requires attending the customers and handling lots of cash. Because of that, I'm kinda afraid making mistakes but insyaallah there won't be any mistakes in term of cash that is. But still!! I can't believe it, I make a blunder yesterday!! I need to learn from that mistakes and don't ever repeat it.

I can't believe it😆😆

It's my birthday today!! I thought I didn't have friends that remember my birthday.. But I do have friends who still remember me.. But among all the wishes, my favourite wishes is from someone I once loved and now consider me as his bestfriend.. The wishes goes like this.. Morning and happy birthday my dear ****.. It may seems simple but for me, it can change my whole day 360 degrees.. And I met him just now, he keep on wishing me happy birthday😍😍.. I don't need gifts or presents but all I need is a simple wish that can make me happy.. I didn't say that others who wishes me doesn't make me happy.. No... I'm thrilled actually but from that one particular person wish make me extra happy😘😘

Few Minutes to go

Although, I know I'm childish but I can't avoid thinking that I'm really am childish... I'm sleepy but I refuse to go to sleep.. Because tomorrow is my 20th birthday.. It's supposed to be special I think..  I'm not expecting any present or gifts but I want my friends and my family to atleast remember and wish me.. But I don't think it's really possible since I'm not much of a always spend her time with her friends.. I know it's hurt if what I hope won't come true but I still hope for it.. Tomorrow, I'm still doing the same thing and nothing change at all.. I have to accept that I'm just one of the many person in the world.. Although, I said that.. I know that I refuse to accept it..