It's stupid

Assalamualaikum ~ I know I'm stupid.. I'm so happy in giving him this gift but now all I feel is down.. Because I go and stalk his IG and a lot of his ex-girlfriend picture... My heart feels really hurt... I know that I'm the one who is "perigi mencari timba"..  I know it's hard to make someone fall for us when his heart is own by someone else ..  Am I too hopeful? It's stupid but I feel like crying... It's my first time to fall this hard for a guy and that one guy is someone who is out of my reach.. 😭😭😭😭 I know it's stupid but sometimes I just want to say that... I'm sorry I'm not like her or atleast what you expect me to be..

Things Happen 4 Reasons

Assalamualaikum ~~ Now, I'm probably always in not a very cheerful mood. Me n Mr President is no more.. I keep on texting him as usual but I'm afraid that I'll always be on the friendzone.. I know good things take time.. U see I never felt this toward a guy for such a long time.. Usually, I'm the type that easily feel bored when liking a guy... Probably, this is a test from Allah to see my will.. Insyallah, I'll keep being cheerful and happy.. Life must go on right? Don't worry, I won't go and do stupid things.. I love my life.. And I won't be discourage, just because small things happened, at the same time. College, life, family, friends, work, love.. I will face it and I know that all the things happen for reasons.. Remember, every cloud has a silver lining. 😍😍

Little update bout me n such

On 1 september 2015, I have confess my feelings to my dear president.. But he didn't say no or yes.. Instead he rajin layan me and always accompany me n such til now.. But he's different this few days coz the stress are starting to build up.. He wanted to quit his job but his boss refuse to let him go coz he is the hardwork type.. Plus tomorrow, he's going to JB and he also want to maintain the trust that he gain at college.  I really want to make him happy but I don't know how.. I'm confuse..  I really miss the old him, now he is always in a daze.. I know that I only text him.. It's just that.. It's my first time to be in love really hard for a guy.. I never went out with guys except for friends and family.. What will cheer him up? I'm afraid that if I keep on making him upset, he will be not himself....

Hurm

I don't know why but I feel like something die inside of me... Yesterday I was feeling really bad..  I'm gonna miss the old me... Although I really wish that nothing change inside of me... I'm feeling so tired..  I hope someone noticed that changed in me... And I hope that nothing negative happened to me... All I can say hope for best and good luck.

Reality

Assalamualaikum, u know its the fourth day of eid mubarak and same as every year, I spent my eid mubarak with just my family.  But my lil bro got new girlfriends again😒... I'm happy for him but I just realise that I didn't have boyfriend.. If it's just crush toward a guy, I have. Though it's only for little while. That's why they are called crush.  As soon as my crush has girlfriend, with due of respect, I will back off and move on... For the past days of eid mubarak, people keep on saying when are u getting marry? Or I bet u have a special person. Guess what? I don't have special person.  I noticed that I keep on repeating "Lama lg~~". And for the past few weeks, I've been dreaming about this "someone" but I can't seem to recognise him. But in my dreams, I feel so happy and have this feeling which I can't describe and it's really special.  I really want to meet that special "someone".  But I guess I'm dreaming bout this maybe because I just want to date like everyone else.  Even though, I keep on saying "I want to fall in love with someone I really like and I can only achieve it after I've done my studies. *sigh* After all, reality is cruel. So I must forget bout it and move on.  Maybe there will be special someone and who know maybe that special someone is the one in my dream.

P/S: thanks for hearing my "luahan hati"😁😁